2010年6月20日星期日

~~It's a Soul-Hurt~~

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and
it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person,wanders into your stupid life…
You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day,
like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like "maybe we should be just friends"or
"how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love."
- Rose Walker, in SANDMAN #65: "The Kindly Ones:9"

看到这篇的那刹那
真的很心痛
因为正好在想着他
越知道他去的地方越多
越让我心慌
我知道的
做决定的日子越来越靠近
太大了.....我们的距离....
我也是在想....
为什么别人可以那么快找到爱的人?
而又为什么可以那么确定他就是你要一起走到最后的人?
难道没有一丁点的犹疑吗?
我比别人少了什么?
其实....
看完Sex and the City I...
我真的有那么的担心........
是不是我到了三十岁,四十岁,五十岁....
所有的生日情人节都只能自我安慰的和朋友度过?
我始终等不到啊.....
那一个可以像他一样...
给我这种Soul Hurt的感觉..........
我不喜欢这种爱死一个人的感觉......
真的很无助.....
因为爱错的一个人......